As we journey this week, towards the birthday of the Church- Pentecost! let us take a little time to prepare our hearts for the 'Great Coming' of the Holy Spirit. This week in the daily readings of the Mass or in the Liturgy of the Hours we will pick one reading or Psalm or antiphon to reflect upon, then on Saturday we will have the regular Gospel Lectio preparing us for Pentecost Sunday! While Peace is not one of the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit it is Truly the Gift Present when the Holy Spirit is present.
+Come Holy Spirit, Come Spirit of Truth, Come Advocate, Come Promise of the Father, dwell in me. Amen
Gospel of Jn:16 "But I am not alone, because the Father is with me. I have told you this so that you might have peace in me. In the world you will have trouble, but take courage, I have conquered thew world."
I was talking with a young woman the other day, who was wrestling with in her vocation (newly married), she was struggling to adapt to married life. The 'humanness of it all', those normal differences of how we think and handle things, how we work and problem solve, how we express emotions or don't as men and women. They are a terrific couple and I love them, they are disciples of the Lord, in other words, they are trying to follow Christ in a culture drenched with secularism. One thing I could hear as she spoke, was a loss of 'peace.' Peace was stolen from her heart. The problems and the pain of disappointments had robbed her heart of peace and suffocated joy. She was now agitated, restless, confused and heavy of heart. Have you ever felt any of those things 'come upon you'? Do you know what triggered it? I asked her if she knew and there was absolute silence for about 3 minutes, then she cried and shared. As soon as she said it outloud, the tears seemed to open her heart to Truth and one could sense the Lord near, very Present in it all. Then we were both silent, I waiting on Jesus and she waiting on me. As she sat there in silence she came to a clarity and shared it, of where she could see, she was trying to 'control' things of where she was trying to control him (her husband) and control Him, captial "H"- the Lord. It made me think.
How well I know that feeling inside too, more often expressed in 'restlessness' or placing unfair expectations upon others, or on myself, sometimes even on God and this robs me of peace, the peace of living in His Presence the peace of being with Him. To have "peace in him" is to be with Him in whatever is going on in the present moment. What's going on right now for you? Today? Where is your Peace?
Lord, help us, as disciples to receive to choose your Will, to not fight it, but instead fight the battle of self, that seeks to be god of my life. I love You Jesus.